I am a murderer...

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy
With some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore,
I don't wanna be the reason why,
Everytime I walk out the door,
I see him die a little more inside.
I don't wanna hurt him anymore,
I don't wanna take away his life.
I don't wanna be... A murderer.




I suppose I know everything...but not.
I suppose I know how to love....not really.

Im fine..when everything was a secret...
Im confused...when everything goes wrong...
I actually did sth that I hate someone do it to me b4. ha?



thanks H..no matter clubbing or crying....ur always there.
thanks for being wif me when I was messed up..



誰都會散怎知一拍便會散
怪我自己作反明明我不應再揀 ...

 
C

曇花一現



翌晨醒來的時候,珍惜的,卻遺下了堆疊而成的垂頭喪氣的花蕾,連入眠的勇氣也快將消失了。

夢醒了,是面對的時候。

有一種花,叫曇花。曇花盛開的時候僅僅維持約一小時,這短暫的美麗,在驟眼間消失,卻給人留下美好的畫面,誰也不願它凋謝,但可惜,終會有凋謝的時候。

曇花有曇花的性格,縱使只是一刻動容,它也要讓你目眩神迷,將華麗的一幕深深引在腦海中,間中便由它在心裡浮現。
有多少人曾為過這種緣慳一面的美麗而沉醉,醉意過後,不又是只能把記憶收藏在該收藏的地方。

從來,這種美麗都不能永久。

到底只是一種憧憬,明知的,卻有人甘願沈迷下去。
當分了、散了、消失了,也總算是享受過曇花一現的畫面。
縱使只是霎眼嬌,也算是曾經盛開過花,沒什麼可恨的。

縱然世上有很多比曇花一現更值得欣賞的事,我卻困在花蕊的香氣中。

讓自己陷入昏暗了。



許c

The world

My tarot.

the world(+) means: successes n victories. everything gonna be fine.

It has been long time i hvn't use my tarot. the reason y i hvn't use it is...a secret. then..y i use it now? tht's also a secret I'll never tell. :)


sometimes, i can choose my own way. i can make my choice n my own rules.
u gotta do it ur way but u can't choose ur consequence. u may never know wt's really going on.

up to ur choice. trust urself baby.


welcome back. the world, i miss u.


C

一種攀不到的渴求

 

眼前,空氣中都盡變成淡淡的紫色,土地、天空,雲層上的一抺淡粉紅是那麼遙不可及。
呼吸,在濃濃曖昧的氣息中,瞬間止住了。

尤如千里之外的花瓣,即使緊握手心,任由風聲、雨聲、人聲、歌聲的洗禮後,也會悄悄地溜走,難以觸摸,也觸摸不定。
是誰為著飄浮四散的花瓣節哀,也是誰為著它而暗暗自喜。

人生,從來充滿矛盾。

瀰漫著一股冷冰冰的霧氣之中,一株誘惑的帶剌玫瑰,隱隱地為著傷口默許,卻用不著半點憐愛。
縱然暮色蓋過了玫瑰惜日的光芒萬丈,也不減永恆的冷豔,叫人永遠醉倒。

從來,攀不到的,都是一種渴望。

女人最想要的,的而且確是永恆的愛情。



許c

走下去嗎

 

一步一步,一級一級。

遇上厄運,走下去;難以捉摸的每一步,走下去。
第二步都是帶著第一步的勇氣而走的,走下去。

走下去,繼續走下去。

底層是什麼?會遇上什麼?會跌進那裡?然後又得到什麼?

走下去,最後也許粉身碎骨,還是走下去;
走下去,或許遇上意想不到的,決心走下去;
走下去,已接近似是而非的盡處,頭也不回走下去。

勇氣來了。
第一、第二、第三步,最終,停下來找回所有顧慮。
走上去,還是走下去。還不決定。

人,就是愛挑戰、愛嘗試,對眼前一切有著莫名其妙的好奇心,終究卻找不到因由。

能夠承受多少、擁有多少,還是一片迷糊。
能夠享有更多,還是失去更多,還要摸黑追尋下去嗎?

勇氣,消失了。

為何,為何還走下去?

 

Life is what u make it. Life is how u choose.


 
許c